We build up walls that are as high as the skyscraper so that no one can ever climb over it.

We build up walls that are made out of steel so that no one can break it easily.
Why do we keep rebuilding our walls? Why are we making our walls higher and stronger?

What are we protecting ourselves from?

We are pieces from shattered promises, we are the remains of a dream that never came true. We are the people who are being betrayed by our loved ones.

To trust is to believe someone is good for you. To trust is to rely on a person. To trust is to believe every word they say. To trust is like closing our eyes and jumping out off from the window and you know that someone will catch you.

I trust you. Three words that are often taken advantage of.

We put trust on a creation that doesn’t even know how to take care of their own heart. We put trust on something that cannot even change our fate. We thought by trusting them, they would grant us peace and happiness. We put trust on something that we are uncertain of.  And most human beings betray our trust simply because we put too many hopes on them rather than putting trust in Allah. If we believe Allah is behind all of the things that happen to us, we will thank Allah for rerouting our lives, we will thank Allah for the broken promises because only HE can see what our future will be like.

We will live by what Allah has written for us in the Luh Mahfuz, we will believe that his Qada’ and Qadar is the only thing we can trust in this end of times. To have trust in Allah, is to always believe in yourself that you can go through life by leaving it in the hands of Allah. With the decision you make, the people you give trust to, the fate and future that will happen, if you have Allah as the best companion in your heart and TRUST HIM in everything, you will attract honest people who will lead you to a better life. Betrayals, broken promises are only a way of Allah saying to you that humans are weak, why do you not ask HIM before trusting anyone.

We forgot that we were supposed to wake up in the middle of the night to talk to Allah, to have a discussion with Allah about the route we are taking. We forgot to ask HIS “opinions” through our Tahajjud and Istikharah. Aren’t those supposed to be our guidance in choosing or deciding?

Let us practice asking our creator. HE knows every of our secrets, our hidden flaws, our doas, So won’t you trust HIM to let HIM tell you whom to trust?



Through out 10 years of trying to find myself. Try to find the purpose of what I actually do best. I had found million ways that doesn’t work and I am still hitting the wall every now and then. You can ask the people who knew me. My families, my friends, my affiliates. They will tell you how screwed up I was when working on ways that does not really work.

But one thing about me is that, I am stubborn. Giving up was never in my dictionary.

It took me 6 months to master IMOVIE to edit a video to help a friend. 6 months of my life! So I am not talented after all like they said. I just never give up. And from the result of that hustle, eventually I’ve upgraded my skills to edit a good quality video using Premiere Pro instead of IMOVIE.

You may asked, how long does it took me to learn Premiere Pro maybe when it took 6 months to learn the simple IMOVIE. The answer is 3 full days.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s not about talent. It is just that when I learnt about video editing with IMOVIE, I had pushed myself so hard, hitting the wall so many times till I didn’t understand the language of giving up. I dedicate my life to learn and edit. And its not easy to go through those 6 months of learning with no prior video editing experience. I was a musician who trying to edit a video and I swear there is no musical scales that I can use to help me with this.

I was broken when I was learning how to edit a video back then, so much so that I am used to fail and try again and fail and try again.

Take reyhu for an example.

When I started reyhu. It was a lonely 4 years of my life. I failed badly the first 3 years of entrepreneurship. I was living on credit, broke most of the time. I rarely shop for new clothes. I rarely eat outside, I have very little time to have fun or go out with my friends. And my family was worry about me because I was not here or there. I was broken pretty bad finding ways to make it work. I had sleepless night, my brain was thinking about ways to solve the challenges i’m facing even when I’m asleep. I was truly devastated. I felt that I was facing this battle all alone.

I almost want to give up, because it starts to affect on my health.

But slowly I realise that, I keep repeating to do the same thing that doesn’t work and expecting a different outcome.

It may be straight forward you can say, but you can’t notice you are making that mistake when you are all over it. Until you hit rock bottom then you see it broke into pieces. So I decided to change the way we work on reyhu.

And I noticed, there are improvement on the way we do things on reyhu. It will take time, but we are working on a new road.

My advise to you and myself:

“ It takes time to create. Never stop learning and develop ourselves. Ignore those people who don’t want to help us to grow and better ourselves. Work with other people temporarily if life is hard while we are trying to work for ourselves. Don’t feel embarrassed to say that: “I am trying to work on some ideas but currently I’m working at Coffee Bean” that kinda thing you know. Do something that can benefit the people. Be true to what you believe in.”

Jvan Meim

In the olden times, it is very common to hear parents tell their children to do something because “I told you so” or “This is correct because I say so.”

Whenever a younger person try to correct an elder, they will be deemed as rude and disrespectful. Many parents adopt a “holier-than-thou” approach and their ego gets in the way when being told on a better way to do things or if their error was being highlighted. This is against the teachings of Islam which encourages us to question and not to follow blindly.

Allah says in the Holy Quran:

Surah Al-Kahf: 50

“And (remember) when We said to the angels: ‘Prostrate yourselves unto Adam.’ So they prostrated themselves except ‘Iblis’ (Satan). He was one of the jinn; he disobeyed the command of his Lord” (Quran, Surah Al-Kahf: 50).

Surah Al-Baqarah: 34

“….And they prostrated except Iblis (Satan), he refused and was proud and was one of the disbelievers (disobedient to Allah)” (Quran, Surah Al-Baqarah: 34).

Satan’s arrogance – reinforced by his false logic, and jealousy – prevented him from obeying Allah’s command.

As Allah tells us in the Quran, Satan said,

Surah-Al-Aaraf: 12
“I am better than him (Adam), You created me from fire, and him You created from clay” (Quran, Surah Al-Aaraf: 12)

Life is a constant learning process for all of us, young and old and it is only right for us to admit our mistakes where deemed fit and necessary. It will make the children respect us even more and thus mirror our actions. The best way to teach our children good values is to practice them ourselves.

Throughout Islamic history and in Islamic literature, the rights and responsibilities pertaining to children are clear cut. Parents, families, and communities have certain responsibilities towards children. Many of them are obligatory, and on the Day of Judgement, God will question adults about the treatment of their children. A child is a blessing, and not a possession.

We must therefore empower children to do and say the right things. There are ways for children to gently nudge an adult towards doing better good, without the need to be disrespectful. Adults should never feel challenged just because a younger person highlights our mistake.

There was one morning when I woke up to do Fajr’ prayers and my 4-year-old daughter came into my room, happily telling me that the angels have woken her up to do her morning prayers. I usually do not have the heart to wake her up for Fajr’ as she is still so young although she has consistently reminded me to so and so one day, I told her to make duaa before she sleep and Allah will arrange for angels to wake her up.

After Fajr’ prayers, I was feeling a little sleepy and wanted to go back to sleep but my daughter reminded me not to go back to sleep until after sunrise. She said that ‘Malaikat Mikael’ wants to give us ‘rezeki’ and it is sunnah for us to make supplications or read the Quran after Fajr’. She was basically repeating my words to her right back at me. That was when I realised the weightage of my words on my children and that I should always ‘walk the talk’. I apologised to her and thank her for reminding me.

There were other times that I shared with her that I am not perfect for I am only human. Only Allah is perfect but that does not mean I can use that as a convenient excuse to do wrong. I requested for her to remind me if Syaitan’s whispers get to me and I start losing my temper with my children because Syaitan loves to influence us humans to do bad. I am thankful that Allah has gifted me with such a responsible and thoughtful child. My child is my SUPERHERO!

CCLL 3’s theme this year will be “I AM A SUPERHERO”. Let’s build a generation of SUPERHEROES who are good Muslims together. Insya’allah!

Look out for more details of the stage programmes and vendors involved for CCLL 3!


Date: 29th Jul 2017
Time: 1 to 6pm
Venue: Mujahidin Mosque Auditorium Level 4 (beside MDIS)

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Warmest regards,
Shasha Ya’kob

“And we have created man in the best form.” Surah At-Tin:4

This is for the ones who lost themselves. For anyone who thinks they’re not good enough. We’ve all been through that.

Often, we let bad negative vibes gets to us. We let them consume us. We let others define us. We let society shapes us. Often as well do we let others have their way with us. We blame ourselves for not being good enough. We hate everything about ourselves that we forgot that Allah has created us in the best of form. He even mentioned it in Surah At-Tin, 4th ayah. We are perfectly created by Him. That is enough reassurance, isn’t it? But no, we’re humans who always wants more than what we’re given.

Years back, I was almost too lost. Almost in the most pitiful state I could ever be. I let myself be swayed by the world and its temptation. I was doing all the wrong things – clubbing every other weekend, chilling at the bar almost too often, wearing revealing clothes. I knew back then my actions were wrong yet I was ignorant of it. I was guilty yet I put that feeling at the back of my mind. It was the only way I could thought of to fill in the voids in my heart. Even then, I was still not happy. It was as if there were something missing. I want to look for it but I didn’t know what is it. Growing up, even though I learn the fundamentals of my religion and its teaching, I rarely practice them. I knew Allah exists yet I wasn’t too sure if he ever listens to me. Yet, at that time, my heart spoke out of sadness to Him.

“O Allah, I know you’re there and I believe that you know what is in my heart. Is this your way of calling me home? Calling me to you? If it is, give me a sign or show me a way to you and ease my affairs for me”

For a week, while I was at work or outside, the people who walked passed me were women donning the hijab. As a free hair, I felt guilty but I was in love with every sight. It was like a tug in my heart and I knew right away that I want to start donning it and I did. My colleagues weren’t very happy with my decision but I didn’t care. I haven’t felt anywhere near content before wearing this. So, I stood by my decision. Around the same time, I start to recite the Quran. It had been too long since I last read. I stumbled on my recitation but my heart was at ease. Reading the Quran wasn’t enough. My heart wanted something more.

Until I started to pray. At 3am in the morning. My first prayer after many years. I remembered clearly the feeling that enveloped me that morning. It was one of serene. Almost as if Allah Himself was embracing me. My knees almost went weak. There were too many emotions going on but I was sure of one thing and that was, I’m home.

“Wa’idza sa’alaka i’badi a’nni fa’inni qoribun ujibu da’watad dai idza da’an”
And when My servants ask you concerning Me, then surely, I am very near; I answer the prayer of the supplicant when he calls on Me. – Al-Baqarah:186

Allah heard me. I knew right then that I won’t turn back. This is where I want to be. This is what I want to feel. This contentment that nothing and no one in this world could provide. I started to try being steadfast and consistent. It was the hardest battle between me and my nafs over the years since then. I failed too many times to the world’s temptation but caught myself before I could go down any further.

In my own battle, Allah sets hurdle in my life. The kind I wish He could take away the second He gave to me. I know I was going to fail yet I steadied my heart and set my foot my His journey. Despite the many times I fail, the tug at my heart is what keeps me trying to keep on getting back up.

In my own battle, I learn to let go of so many things that does not benefit me. At the same time losing a lot of things and people along the way. People I thought were friends and those I thought would be with me till the end. Allah put them out of my life and me out of their life but He gives me better friends who constantly pulls me towards the good. Friends who advice and really took their time and went out of their way for me just as I would do them. Allah is fair.

In my own battle, I learn to love myself and be forgiving. I learn to forgive and forget. I learn to accept the qada’ and qadr of Allah. I was taught to be more mindful of my speech and action and I become more responsible of myself. I learn to respect myself which makes me change the way I dress. I learn to put barriers between me and the people around me so that I don’t fall into the place I was once from. Most of all I learn to accept my flaws and flaws of the people around me.

So, hold on to the rope of Allah. For He never disappoint you. Steadfastness is a battle between you and your nafs. It is not easy but it is worth it. Trust that Allah has created you in the best form, therefore love yourself and let go of the negativity that people put on you. You are not obligated to shoulder the negativity they throw at you. Believe that Allah is Most Merciful and Most Forgiving. Allah is Al Afuww. He is Ar Rahman and Ar Rahim.
Know that He is Al Wadud. The Most Loving. The one who loves you the most and He will pick you up. You have to believe that IF you reach out to Him, He will reach out to you. That every afflictions and difficulties Allah gives you is His way of calling you closer to Him because He miss you. He loves you and wants to give you goodness.

And above all, I wish you would find the love you deserve in you and your Creator because that is the greatest form of Love. This goes out to the ones who lost themselves. For anyone who thinks they’re not good enough. We’ve all been through that. You just have to believe and hold onto your faith.

Nur Atikah 
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There comes a time in your life that you will get hurt by someone you truly love. You flawed in your own ways. You made a mistake.

But despite these mistakes, you were apologetic about it and you said sorry. You said it with all your heart and you mean it. But some people just push you aside.

We live day by day trying our best to please everyone we love.

We even change for them. We want to make them happy in every way.

And then without realizing it, we make a mistake.

We couldn’t help ourselves because we are human beings and that is what we are supposed to do.

We are created to make mistakes, and then to learn from all the mistakes so that we can become a better person.

Be it family, friends or even the community around us, there are 99 good things that we did great, and they thought we are going to score ourselves a hundred till that 1 thing that could make us perfect, and suddenly, boom! We disappoint them. We tried our best to explain that we are not good enough because at times,this brain of ours do silly things to our nerves and it leads to stupid actions. They ignored your excuses. They cannot accept your apology because you were supposed to be significant. You were supposed to be different. You were supposed to be perfect for them.

We’ve all been through that stage of giving up in pleasing everyone.

All we want to do is just shut down and close our eyes, ears, hide in a corner of a wall and just cry. We are not good enough and we couldn’t accept the fact that we are not perfect. We keep blaming ourselves, and we believe that we are wrong in every way. We do not know the solution to this imperfection that we have. We want to let go of all these people but we love them. Our hearts feel for them. We have created too many memories that are too precious for us to just shake it off. We will miss everything about them. We try to understand their situation and even create imaginary excuses in our mind to fix our heart, To tell our heart that it is all our fault. We started believing that we are not good enough.

If only we could delete the memories, the feelings in our heart, wouldn’t that be great?

We are creations that will constantly fail to succeed, we will fall and bleed but if we give up long time ago because of our failures, we won’t be here right now.

Life is indeed a struggle. But the question is, who are you struggling for? Of all the things that we have done, is it for a being, or for Allah? Why does everything we do, we are always reminded to start with Bismillahirrahmanirrahim? In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

 Because Allah wants to keep reminding us that HE is forgiving, HE keeps giving us mercy even though we have sinned many times and didn’t do taubah.

 Allah have shown His Mercy by not hitting us with a lightning bolt while we are sinning.

HE is Most Forgiving and if every time, we do something, and it is not for him, HE envies.

Allah creates our existence in this Dunya, not to please other makhluk, but to just please HIM.

And when HE gives us that feeling of sadness and disappointment in people, HE wants us to go back to HIM and set our niat to be perfect for HIM.

We tend to forget to Tajdid our niyyah because if we set a niyyah to do something for Allah, to please HIM in every way, we will be surrounded with people who will be forgiving and accepting of who we are. We will feel the attributes of Allah through this people

We are not good enough for everyone because everyone has different expectations of us. We are not good enough and it’s okay. We will learn to better in life,to be a better Muslim.

This time not for anyone, but only for Allah.



Standby Tissue is back again! This time, a heart to heart session discussing on accepting what was already written for us by Allah

An unexpected loss of our loved ones, a friendship that went wrong, a jodoh that was never meant to be, the plan that didn’t go our way and the death that awaits us.


We are reaching out to all sisters to come and join us for this event to be the pillars that will help those sisters who come with a heart that needs to be heal.

Whether you are the one who needs a little healing, or those who wants to be the one who helps them heals, you are welcome to join us on Sunday 21May17!

An Usrah that is specially made for Muslimah. We hope to see you soon!

Tickets available here.



Dear Mummies and Daddies,

Are you and your partner expecting a baby? Ever wondered if it is possible to have a “pain-free” childbirth and a wonderful postpartum journey?
Come and join our panel of experts in this seminar as you and your partner learn more on pregnancy and the secret in having a wonderful postpartum period. We will share with you the tips on how to prepare on the journey of pregnancy and parenthood.

This talk will address key issues such as:
-Spiritual aspects of gentle birthing
-Natural comfort measures during labour
-The husband’s role during labour
-Breastfeeding basics
-Caring for the mother and baby during the postpartum period.

Tickets are $97 for couples and $58 per person.

Come join us in our 3hr Workshop.

Hope to see you soon